Well hello there! It’s been awhile and can I just say, it feels really good to be back. It’s been over 3 months since I’ve posted on here. But you know what, that’s perfectly okay. At first, I beat myself up about it and was dissapointed because I felt like I let myself really slack off. My blog is an outlet and a place where I can be creative in whatever way I choose. And I really do love it for that reason. But to be honest, I wasn’t really feeling up to it.
These past few months have been really tough for me. To put things plain and simple, I didn’t feel like myself. I was dealing with something medically, which really messed with my head. Although I’m quite a positive person, I tend to think of the worst outcomes when something goes wrong (especially when it’s health-related). Because of this, I developed really bad anxiety – it was paralyzing and I couldn’t go about my life normally. The anxiety led to panic attacks, which left me feeling really down and unsure of how to cope. I’ve experienced anxiety before when I was younger, but never to the extent I did recently. If you’re going through a similar situation, I want you to know that you are NOT ALONE. There were times where I’d be so frustrated with the way I was feeling. I just wanted to feel normal, but what is normal? Everyone is facing their own struggles and doing their best to get through it. And once you realize that, it’s easier to not be so hard on yourself.
When life gets too overwhelming and you need some time for yourself, take it! Just accept that you can’t do it all and be on your game every single day. Because some days, you need to let yourself feel however you need or want to feel. Have a little cry, feel sorry for yourself and take as many mental health sick days as you need. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and giving yourself some time away will only help you in the end. For me, that meant taking a break from my blog and anything social media related for the most part. It felt good to not put any pressure on myself for once.
Don’t get me wrong, I love creating content. It makes me very happy, but I just feel so many content creators are focused on creating their version of “a perfect life’ and it’s getting a bit old. I just want to see real content – snippets from people’s day whether it’s a quick outfit shot or an Instagram story of their morning coffee. I want to see the good and the bad because that’s what makes it real and relatable. I’ll continue creating content as long as it makes me happy and feels authentic to me. Because if not, than what’s the point?